I attended what I now refer to as “Sunday Service” at the Won-Buddhism Meditation Temple yesterday and it was quite a memorable experience. I have been attending the Temple off and on for about two years now and there is always more to appreciate with each visit.
My practice of meditation started fairly early along this journey. The more I read about it the more I desired to achieve that moment when mind chatter disintegrates and complete silence takes over. And like anything else in life, the more you practice the better you become.
At each service there is always a Dharma talk which one could compare to a sermon. Yesterday’s Dharma talk touched upon several areas that really spoke to me in addition to the Reverend’s commentary on the recent events that took place in Paris. Prior to meditation the Reverend talked about “attachment” and how people become fixated or so consumed with their beliefs and ideals that truth eludes them. Blame is placed on others recklessly, without acknowledgment of self victimization. Her commentary offered me an opportunity to question myself and ask what ideals I was still holding on to and why.
The Dharma talk was given by a student who aspires to be a Buddhist priest. His words were simple but honest, he spoke of being fully committed to his journey and his fear of straying off of his path. He spoke of the despair of not knowing what he should do with his life and how his experiences have brought to him to this decision. He will have to let go of many material attachments and worldly pleasures, and will have to commit daily to his practices. There will be no turning back to his former life, there is no trial period, at twenty something he is fully committed to his calling in life. I instantly thought of all the many things I struggle to commit to in my life that are missed opportunities.
In a few days the sun will enter Sagittarius and as my birthday approaches I am filled with curiosity and excitement knowing that this time is very powerful for me. The choices I make during these next few weeks will propel me into my not so comfort zone or keep me complacent within my comfort zone. As the planets align in my favor how will I best make use of this energy? What will I let go of that I have held on to for too long? What no longer serves me? What will I commit to and will I be able to stay accountable to it? The shift I felt in October continues to expand and great opportunity for transformation and abundance lie ahead of me. This shift also brings discomfort and anxiety, triggering the part of me that wants to ask “why can’t this be easy”? But still, I pray for guidance, taking action towards what I know to do, stay faithful to my practices while yielding the rest to God.
Lately, I have been asking the question “What Shall I Do”? It is this same question that the young Dharma student started and ended his story with.